tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10899728.post115135534473808931..comments2023-11-03T03:46:57.985-07:00Comments on Discovering Me: In Which I am Grateful...dammit.MBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10090873170016511220noreply@blogger.comBlogger7125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10899728.post-1151683129663421402006-06-30T08:58:00.000-07:002006-06-30T08:58:00.000-07:00((((((hugs))))))I don't believe in that positive t...((((((hugs))))))<BR/><BR/>I don't believe in that positive thinking bullcrap. Yes, there are people who become so bitter that they forget the good that is in their lives. I do not see that you are in that place, though. Most of us *do* do our best to balance good and bad -- and when there is a lot of bad, it naturally outweighs the good. How can you smell the roses when someone is hitting you in the head with a brick?<BR/><BR/>I hope that you can find some moments of peace...katehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16536809590856333391noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10899728.post-1151415052914105702006-06-27T06:30:00.000-07:002006-06-27T06:30:00.000-07:00No one told me you could get follicles on your fac...No one told me you could get follicles on your face!<BR/><BR/>Not sure how you're grateful. Is it grateful in a way like having my mom drive me crazy, and I say, 'At least I have a mom'?<BR/><BR/>Over and over again my heart breaks for you. I know the despair of never seeming to get there. <BR/><BR/>We will get there.... right?lorem ipsumhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04034551632421077938noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10899728.post-1151371985156276962006-06-26T18:33:00.000-07:002006-06-26T18:33:00.000-07:00I have had that lovely clomid acne. I felt like is...I have had that lovely clomid acne. I felt like isn't it enough that I have to deal with being infertile, but now I have to look bad too! I hate, hate hate clomid!<BR/><BR/>As for looking on the bright side...Michelle, come on. You have been through hell, I don't have to tell you that! When my mom died and I couldn't get pregnant, I would tell myself to look at all that I have, what is my problem?! The problem is losing Audrey is a life changing experience. Having m/c and not being able to get pregnant again is devastating. You are doing your best to just hold on and not lose it some days. That is enough for you to handle right now. I know you are grateful for what you have, but I also know it is damn hard NOT to think about what you don't have. And children are something that money can't buy. Be kind to yourself.formerteacherhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13174688455833231110noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10899728.post-1151361547327743862006-06-26T15:39:00.000-07:002006-06-26T15:39:00.000-07:00I'm probably can't be that supportive because I fe...I'm probably can't be that supportive because I feel like I'm in a similar place. And the scary thing, that I don't like to admit to myself, is that imagining being pregnant doesn't make me feel instantly better. It scares me that I can't fathom actually feeling "good".<BR/><BR/>hugsSWHhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06571144622886527378noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10899728.post-1151360785682135802006-06-26T15:26:00.000-07:002006-06-26T15:26:00.000-07:00i acknowledge that i'm in a little different place...i acknowledge that i'm in a little different place, and *should* be grateful for it...and some days i am, like every other day. but the days in between i am definitely doing lots of hell-on-earth-making. i don't even try any more not to do it. much of life *is* hellish, and being all pollyana-ish about it isn't going to change that fact. but there's much to be said for a positive attitude - benefits galore, according to researchers everywhere. so let them be positive all the time and see how it goes. <BR/><BR/>i'm sorry you're in this place, and i hope there's some heaven to be made of all of it.laurahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12650967136734094216noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10899728.post-1151360310485518182006-06-26T15:18:00.000-07:002006-06-26T15:18:00.000-07:00hey MB, thanks for commenting on my most recent en...hey MB, thanks for commenting on my most recent entry. <BR/><BR/>I feel very much the way you do and don't know how to turn off the voice in my head that says "your whole life sucks, get used to it." Some days I can turn the volume down, but it never quite goes away and I don't know how to get back to the old me, the one who could see the bright side of things. It seems more and more like there is no bright side.<BR/><BR/>I think I'm a few days behind you, cycle-wise, so I'm not surprised that I'm a weepy, bitter, pathetic mess. Maybe we can eat chocolate together and write nasty emails to all baby-related business? <BR/><BR/>But of course if we do, we'll be grateful while doing it... Riiiight.Lisa P.https://www.blogger.com/profile/04048193493804649016noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10899728.post-1151359302136772182006-06-26T15:01:00.000-07:002006-06-26T15:01:00.000-07:00I hope that the not temping can bring some relief ...I hope that the not temping can bring some relief to at least some of the stress. I'm sorry this is so damn hard. It's not right at all. Sending love and hugs.Juliehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05677254184072806142noreply@blogger.com