Discovering Me

Me on having babies, losing babies, trying to have babies and hoping to bring this one home.

Thursday, February 22, 2007

One

One fetus including a nice heartbeat. One yolk sac with no fetus.

I can't say much else at the moment. I'm trying to be grateful, but it's really hard when I feel so very sad.

24 Comments:

  • At 1:03 PM , Blogger KB said...

    (((HUGS))) It's okay to be sad. It really is.

    Congratulations!! It's also okay to be happy. And if he ends up being a girl after all, you should name her after me. ;)

     
  • At 1:11 PM , Blogger formerteacher said...

    I was pregnant with twins after my IVF. Sadly, I too, lost one of them.
    It was so sad, and every now and again I look at the ultrasound picture that I have of both of them. I was worried that something else would go wrong with the other one, but it didn't. He's now nearing his second birthday. I pray that you get an ending like that too. I know how bad it feels to lose a twin, or any child for that matter. Hang in there, and take care of the little guy that's still inside. Apparently, 'vanishing twins' are very common, and many times the other embryo/fetus goes on to survive and become part of your family. It happened that way for me, and I pray it'll happen for you too. I DO have a good feeling about this pregnancy. I really do. Now go get some sleep!

     
  • At 1:17 PM , Blogger Gayle said...

    ((Hugs)) Be good to yourself!

     
  • At 1:21 PM , Blogger Kathy McC said...

    ((((hugs)))) I am so glad to hear that one is doing so well. I am sorry you also received bad news...definitely ok to be sad.

    Thinking of you.

     
  • At 2:13 PM , Blogger whatthef*ck said...

    there's plenty of time to feel grateful, as you will when your surviving twin continues to survive. sounds like now is a time for grieving. if you try to be grateful, you might prolong the grieving because you won't be feeling like you should be grieving. do the grief. it's the only way. don't get over it, get through it.

     
  • At 3:33 PM , Blogger Lisa P. said...

    (((hugs))) I'm sorry MB. I think it's ok to be sad.

     
  • At 3:36 PM , Blogger pithydithy said...

    Oh, hon, I'm happy and sad for you all at once. Of course you feel both too-- only about a thousand times more searingly. I'm thinking of you, grieving for your loss, and celebrating for the heartbeat. Hugs.

     
  • At 4:52 PM , Blogger three minute palaver said...

    Oh Michelle. I'm sorry this is happening to you. It's hard to have already wrapped your head around the idea of twins only to have that crushed so quickly. I'm really happy for you that one foetus has a great heartbeat ~that really is something to celebrate. Now, come on baby, grow, grow, grow.

     
  • At 5:06 PM , Blogger vixanne wigg said...

    Both happy and sad for you. I hope there is no more sadness.

     
  • At 5:24 PM , Blogger Jill said...

    You are in such an awful position:( I am sorry you have lost yet another little soul and I am hoping that your little survivor continues as s/he has begun. (((hugs)))

     
  • At 5:40 PM , Blogger TwoGoosMom said...

    Life can sure be bittersweet sometimes. It's okay to feel both happy and sad...conflicting I'm sure, but okay. Big hugs to you tonight!

    Elizabeth S (TLOL)

     
  • At 6:43 PM , Blogger Catherine said...

    Oh damn! I was so hoping for two for you...some kind of universal karmic balance or something. {{{hugs}}}

     
  • At 7:03 PM , Blogger lauralu said...

    i'm so sorry about the empty sac, but so, so, so glad about the heartbeat. love to you and that little beating heart.

     
  • At 10:33 PM , Blogger Rosepetal said...

    I'm so sorry Michelle. It is very sad. I am sad for you too.

     
  • At 4:52 AM , Blogger kate said...

    The same as everybody else -- i am very happy for the heartbeat and sad for the vanished twin. I was so hoping for twins for you :(

     
  • At 5:23 AM , Blogger aimless said...

    I am so sorry. That is a loss and you should be sad. Don't let anyone tell you differently. There will be time to rejoice over the beautiful little belly bean you have growing--give yourself time to grieve.

     
  • At 6:09 AM , Blogger Sarah said...

    It's ok to be sad... but keep remembering the nice heartbeat too. I had hoped you wouldn't have any more sad news for the next year or so, at least. Now I hope for that even more.

     
  • At 6:18 AM , Blogger Lala said...

    I'm just echoing everyone else by saying--just let yourself grieve for your second little bean and also for the idea of having twins. It's totally okay to be sad, because at the same time I know that you're celebrating that strong little heartbeat. We all are! Big hugs, Michelle.

     
  • At 8:51 AM , Blogger Brandy said...

    I'm glad you have a nice heartbeat for one but am very sorry about the other. I'm sending my best thoughts your way.

     
  • At 12:06 PM , Blogger R said...

    I lost a twin. I know how it feels. I am so sorry Michelle. I am so sorry. Allow yourself time to grieve. I made the mistake of "Forcing" myself to be happy for the twin that was ok because I thought that allowing myself to grieve would be me being "ungrateful". Not so. I'm sorry.

     
  • At 2:59 PM , Blogger Ruby said...

    I'm so sorry. I'm also happy for you and your baby who continues to be.

     
  • At 4:17 PM , Blogger Michelle said...

    Oh...sorry, sweetie. I know this is bittersweet. And it's okay to feel the way you feel.

    Hugs for the twin you lost and cheers to the nice heartbeat you heard!

     
  • At 12:25 PM , Blogger Emma's Mum said...

    I am thinking about you and hoping that you are doing ok today....

     
  • At 8:51 AM , Blogger niobe said...

    How terribly, terribly sad.

    When I lost my first twin at 20 weeks, I felt inexplicably angry, as though the remaining twin had somehow killed it. Completely irrational, but that's the thought that kept running through my head.

    I wish you peace. It's so hard for others to understand why this hurts so much.

     

Post a Comment

Subscribe to Post Comments [Atom]

Links to this post:

Create a Link

<< Home