What now?
I don't know what's next. I do know I'm done with the RE for a while. I may drag out the old fertility monitor and try that for a few months. I may even renew the old Fertility Friend subscription and try that.
Wanna hear something funny? When we first started "trying" and I started at FF, I only got the 3 month subscription because I was stupid enough to think I wouldn't be there that long. Joke's on me, eh? Maybe this time, I'll do the lifetime. Makes sense since it's taking a lifetime to get pregnant.
I'm honestly not as upset as I thought I would be. I'm still a little surprised. I really thought this was it. It's not. It never is. I don't understand why. That is still the hardest part...
Wanna hear something funny? When we first started "trying" and I started at FF, I only got the 3 month subscription because I was stupid enough to think I wouldn't be there that long. Joke's on me, eh? Maybe this time, I'll do the lifetime. Makes sense since it's taking a lifetime to get pregnant.
I'm honestly not as upset as I thought I would be. I'm still a little surprised. I really thought this was it. It's not. It never is. I don't understand why. That is still the hardest part...
posted by MB @ 2:20 PM
8 Comments:
At 3:09 PM ,
Anonymous said...
I don't understand, either.
At 7:05 PM ,
laura said...
there's no rhyme or reason to this, but i hope you defy reason (and rhyme, or whatever) and get your heart's desire.
At 5:58 AM ,
Anonymous said...
I so wish that I could just take all of this pain away for you. I wish I had the power to give you what you want most. I really hate seeing this happend to you.
Life does really seem to kick you when your down and I don't understand it .
I am here if you need me.
At 5:49 PM ,
Roxanne said...
I'm so sorry honey. It's so not fair. I was really hoping to hear good news from you.
At 6:48 PM ,
formerteacher said...
I did the same thing with FF; I never thought I'd ever have a problem getting pregnant!
I'm so sorry this is all happening to you. It just doesn't make any sense.
At 10:27 AM ,
Anonymous said...
Michelle, I am so sorry the transfer didn't work.
Check the Mommies of the World website, I am going to leave you a private message.
At 1:08 PM ,
kati said...
Michelle, I am right there with you. My beta was also negative. I don't know where to go from here either. I once thought that it was such an ordinary dream to have kids. Not anymore.
At 4:43 PM ,
Anonymous said...
Hi M,
I'm hoping you're doing ok tonight. I have been thinking about you alot; this month is our first official month trying, and I can't imagine what you are going through. Audrey dying, and then all of this. I just can't imagine. Just know that I am here for you, and I am praying that the ache in your arms and heart is filled with a precious life very very soon.
Be good to yourself and all those who love you (a LOT of people!).
Rachel
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