Discovering Me

Me on having babies, losing babies, trying to have babies and hoping to bring this one home.

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Things that keep me awake at night

Claritin D
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Everything I have to do at work after a long weekend.
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Worrying why Gracie has had a strange fever and no other symptoms for two days.
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Wondering what the gas bill will look like after we heated the pool to 90 degrees all weekend.
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Wondering what our long weekend would have been if Audrey had been with us.
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Worrying that I won't get enough sleep to get an accurate temperature reading for my chart on Fertility Friend. Ultimately deciding that at this point in my cycle it was too early to care.
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Wondering whether we'll actually get pregnant this cycle and scheming about using my left over progesterone and debating whether I should call Dr. Moore and ask her opinion before I just take them. Ultimately deciding to take them without telling her and asking for forgivemess if I have to fess up.
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Freaking out that Jim's last official day of work was last Thursday and wondering of he'll find a job sooner rather than later. Thinking about the interview he has Friday that may well require a move to New Jersey and wondering how that would work. How will my boss take it and how much easier it would be to say that we had to move vs. I just don't want to work here (or anywhere) anymore.
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Wondering why my back and shoulders hurt like hell and remembering that stress will do that. Stress? What stress?
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Thinking about bills I have to pay on payday Thursday. Ugh, no money already and payday is still 2 days away. Shit.
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Wishing my trip to mom's on the 17th was closer. What will I pack? What will we do?
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Counting how many hours I have left to sleep if I were to fall asleep now. And now. And now.
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Fucking hell I'm tired.

2 Comments:

  • At 4:06 PM , Blogger lorem ipsum said...

    Do you know what puts me to sleep? I play these games. Alphabet games. US-international names, like Aberdeen, Washington and Aberdeen, Scotland, then Bristol, Connecticut and Bristol, England.

    Here's another. Three rock groups for every letter of the alphabet. (I can name five that begin with 'Q.') Too easy? Three one-word rock groups. How about albums?

    Rank every guy you've ever kissed. Or just name them. In order.

    You WILL fall asleep. Claritin-D be damned.

     
  • At 8:24 PM , Blogger kate said...

    ((((((hugs)))))))

     

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