Getting Depressed

Another negative. Period's due Monday. I'm starting to think it just isn't happening this month. Okay, not starting, STILL thinking. No syptoms. I feel sick, but I think that's nerves. The sick part never started for me until about 6 or 7 weeks. I know I had sore boobs with Gracie, but I don't remember if I did with Audrey.

I see the peri on Monday afternoon. I so wanted to go see him with th news of a positive test. I don't know how I'll feel if I can't. It's so not like me to be this bummed and down about anything. I feel so consumed by this.

I don't know which end is up. I wish I knew how to get off the roller coaster.