Discovering Me

Me on having babies, losing babies, trying to have babies and hoping to bring this one home.

Thursday, January 12, 2006


That ache for a baby is so strong today. I want to skip all the way to the part where we meet for the first time. Those first few stares and looks while we are still at the hospital. That intense feeling of love and raw emotion. Those first few know, the really nasty ones!

I want to know that again so very badly.


  • At 11:29 AM , Blogger Sarah said...

    I feel like i could have written your last two posts. I'm now worried that like lauralu i will be put on some "bad girl internet user" list because i read blogs way too much at work.

    I'm also not even trying to get pregnant yet and am obsessed with "the baby" that could be. I think about maternity leave and days on end of just being with the baby (yes i know that at times this will drive me insane and yet i crave it). I want to study little hands and feet and touch a soft baby head with my cheek. And, yes, i want the diapers too!

  • At 7:16 PM , Anonymous rach said...

    you will.

  • At 7:28 PM , Blogger Jill said...

    I'm so sorry:( One foot after the other and you will get there. I wish it didn't have to be this way for you ((hugs))

  • At 8:06 PM , Blogger formerteacher said...

    I remember that; oh how I remember that ache. When I brought the boys yesterday to show my old RE, I saw the women there, read my blog---I didn't do it intentionally I swear!, and I remembered it all over again. I am so sorry this is happening to you. I wish no one had to go through this hell. And I was so pissed about Angelina! The people who seem like they need to struggle don't, and us who would love to be a mom or a mom to more than one child, do. It's not fair!!!
    I can't wait to hear about your pregnancy, because this year it's going to happen! I praying for you; I don't know if you're religious but it can't hurt, can it???? Good luck! You have been through enough already!

  • At 5:00 AM , Anonymous Anissa said...

    I am sorry you are feeling so down and wanting a new baby so badly right now. I only wish I had the power to make things better for people you. I really hate seeing you hurt so much. I also wish that you could fly down here and help me put away those clothes. That offer from you means so much to me. Thank you so much. Let me know if you need anything.


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