Better

No, I didn't jump off of a bridge or throw myself in front of a train last night. I'm better today. Poor Jim. I unloaded on him a little bit and initially he tried to fight back but I think he finally realized that I was (am) just at the end of my rope and decided to listen and help. He's trying. I need to try too. You all raised very good points about communicating with him.

He isn't a mind reader and it is unfair of me to expect that of him. I preach that as a manager all the time and then, look at me doing it to my poor husband. I do expect him to "get" things that he is probably just incapable of "getting". The real problem is that I am a shit communicator. I always have been. If it's my problem, then it's my problem and I will deal with it. I start there and then end up pissed at him for not helping. Totally unfair. I'm just not good at dealing with hard stuff.

Today's better partly because I haven't had my daily screaming session with my boss. Although, I suppose it's early and we could still have one of those. I shouldn't speak too soon. But, it's Friday, maybe he's decided I've had enough for one week. One can only hope...

So, I'm glad it's the weekend. I'm exhausted. Physically, emotionally, all of it. I am spent.

I do need a vacation. We have a trip planned to the Hotel Colorado in Glenwood Springs, Colorado during the week between New Year's & Christmas. That's very exciting. Lovely, historic, grand hotel and fabulous hot springs to lounge in while watching the snow fall. Heaven.