Discovering Me

Me on having babies, losing babies, trying to have babies and hoping to bring this one home.

Thursday, October 23, 2008


I'm working through it. Loads of issues. Stuff between my brother an parents and I that goes way back, stuff about babies lost, and stuff about probably being done having babies. I guess the list could go on, but it is what it is for now. My baby brother is going to be a daddy, my parents will have more grandkids and (for the most part) it's all good. I'll try to keep my own issues at bay and just enjoy the ride.

Things have been nuts. My aunt and her girlfriend (yes, girlfriend) are staying with us while they try and find a house. They moved from Minnesota to get away from the crappy weather there and to be closer to family. They are wonderful to the girls and fun to have around. We are delighted they will be close to us. It's fun to have family nearby for the first time ever.

We've been out to dinner twice. Once on my birthday and once for a big charity dinner thing we went to. It was great to dress up and not have to referee dinner. I'm sure with them being here we'll have plenty of dinners and an overnight or two in our future.

Halloween is almost here and shortly thereafter Thanksgiving. Before we know it it will be Christmas. Is anyone traveling for the holidays? Everyone's coming to us for Christmas, but we're going to Chicago for a week at Thanksgiving.

What are you all doing?

Friday, October 17, 2008

Mixed (up)

My brother and his wife are going to have a baby. Due May 15. I'm excited for them. I am.

But. Why does it make my heart hurt so much?